To make waves or not to make waves?

Not much to report right now. Things are actually going pretty well. Steven showed his compassionate side by taking care of a very drunk me last weekend! And I returned the favor by picking up his drunk ass from the bar a few days later. I wish I could spend more time with him, I mean we are both unemployed its not like we have any real commitments! So while I would like to take advantage of this time he doesnt seem to want to. It seems business as usual for him, which means having plenty of space. Which I dont get, after what all Lisa has told me about how he was with his ex. It seems with her he couldnt get enough...always wanted to be with her...always wanted to hang out with her and her friends...letting her drive his car all the time, etc etc. Well, he barely lets me drive his car, only 3x has he let me. The first time as a birthday present, the second time just a quickie beer run, and the third time cuz we were out in BFE and we onky had his car and I wanted to go back into town but he didnt. Then he turns around and lets Lisa drive it on 6 hour roadtrip. Whatever. So that kind of pisses me off. And he was so clingy with his ex, and now he accuses me of being that way. So I dont understand how he can be one extreme with her and another extreme with me. Maybe Im taking it too personally, but it makes me think that he doesnt feel as strongly about me as he did her; that he doesnt like me as much. I mean some days it feels like he wants nothing to do with me and that he is only in this for the sex. I mean, we never talk about anything serious or deep, I have never really heard him refer to me as his girlfriend, he doesnt go out of his way for me at all, and in fact half the time seems downright annoyed with me. he wont meet my parents- even after I told him they called him a wuss! Maybe I am reading things all wrong because sometimes he acts really into me, and he was especially in the beginning. I want to find out what he thinks and feels, where this is going, what he wants, etc. But I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place because I feel like I cant talk to him about anything. Anytime I try to talk about anything he just shuts down and gets pissed and says he hates this part of relationships. And if I express my negative feelings about something he thinks Im freaking out and he freaks out. He just cant handle it. And altho sometimes making waves isnt worth it (I prefer everything to just be cool calm and good), I cant let my feelings get ignored, which I promised myself I wouldnt let that happen anymore. So I think i need to try and talk to him, I mean its been 6 months, I think I deserve that at least. I think I will sit him down and tell him that there is stuff I need to say but I feel like I cant talk to him and just see what he says. I do like him, a lot, and I never thought it would get this far because I didnt think there was any long term compatibility. And I guess Im still wondering if thats still the case and we are drawing out the inevitable here. I dont want to be together out of boredome or convienence or just for sex. I want to be together because we really like eachother and are interested by eachother and have a desire to be together with only eachother. So I hope this is what he is feeling but I think I have to come to terms with the fact that this may just be for fun and that it will, in due time, end. So thats one other reason Ive been letting a lot stuff slide and not make waves, cuz I want our time together to be good if its going to be short. But now I think is the time to maybe make a few waves....