Is God testing how much I can handle??

Why does crazy stuff happen to me in groups?

A few months ago: Jake professes his undying love for me the same night I meet Sean. A matter of days later Travis tells me he is serious about divorce and sets a "3 month" timeline for his marriage.

A few weeks ago: Kenny calls me (after 6 months with no word) on the same night Sean is back in town from being gone 2 weeks. I ditch Sean for Kenny. The next day is a friend's funeral. I go with Sean. That night we have "the talk". One day later Travis reveals to me how he doesn't want to have any more kids. That changed this for me in a huge way. In a matter of 2 days I find out that Sean doesnt think we are "compatible" and doesnt want to be my BF and also that the future I thought I might have with the perfect man is not a future and he isnt perfect.

A few days ago: Travis basically breaks up with me and says things between us need to cool off and he seems intent on staying in his marriage. The last shred of hope for us is rapidly disappearing. As is the last shred of hope with Sean after I find out thats hes fucking someone else. I get alcohol poisoning. And Kenny, he hasnt returned any of my recent calls. So I think my days of male attention are coming to and end.

I've just about had enough of the emotional roller coasters. Im tired of the ups and downs. My Tauren fixed earth ways do not take this stuff very well. Its been hard on my psyche. I need a good friend who I can lean on and count on. I need a break. I need a getaway...I want to just get away from it all...end it...IDK......