Latest developments

So Ryan called me last night. Honestly I was not expecting him to call for at least a couple days. We talked and he said he was sorry he hurt my feelings but my reaction did freak him out a little bit. I apologized but also let him know I am not going to let anyone ingnore my feelings and I feel like you shouldn’t flake out on other people, even just a friend. I hope this doesn’t change his opinion of me but I'm sure it does. He probably doesn't think I am as laid back and is probably thinking I'm just as batty as the rest of the females in the world. I am having a struggle with this whole situation. I really want to be there for him because I know he is going through a rough time, but I just don’t want it to be at my expense. I don't want him to get so wrapped up in his own crap that he won't realize how great it is that I am there for him. But I think he already realizes that, he did point it out to me, although it was during his blackout 4am teary-eyed drunk dial! My sister thinks I should back off and let him get through his crap first and then let him come to me, and she might be right, but I just can't do that. I care for him and want to be there for him because its what I do. Although, I have been talking about needing to break my old habits and patterns…but maybe I should take it slow, baby steps girl, you aren't going to change your ingrained nature overnight. I am just so scared that Ryan will turn out like all the rest, which is that I will heal him and then he will dissapear. I really can see this guy being someone I could be with for the long haul, but how do I rate with him? Am I disposable?