Frustrations with boy toy

Arrggghhh!!! Sean is starting to piss me off. This weekend he was being his usual self- a walking contradiction- but this time some of his crap was directed towards me and our "relationship". I was fine with it at the time but now that Ive been stewing on it for a few days Im about to get pissed! (unlike me). The thing is, he is confusing me by sending mixed signals. On one hand he says he doesnt want a GF but then will turn around and whine about how much he wants to find love again and have kids and all that. And he will tell me how awesome I am and if he were looking for a GF, I would have everything he wants, and then turn around and give me a million reasons why we could never be a couple.

But what he is basing these reasons on, is a load of bull because he doesnt know me at all! He judges me but doesnt know shit about me and doesnt care to know! He admits he doesnt want to know because it will get us deeper into possibly falling for one another and he doesnt have anything to "give" a GF right now, since his ex of 9+ years pretty much sapped all his emotional/romantic energy and will. Anyways thats fine expect I have to listen to his crap all the time! I listen, patiently, to him drone on for hours about his life, but he doesnt listen to me or ask me any questions at all. So if you arent interested in getting to know me, dont freakin try and judge me! For example, he expresses his dissatisfaction with me because he thinks Im apathetic and too nice and not independant. Well, he obviously doesnt know me, Im a Taurus- Im stubborn and opinionated as shit! Im just easy going and go with the flow and dont see any need to waste my passionate energies on daily crap that doesnt matter. Dont mistake laid back for apathetic! As for being too nice, who gives a shit- you want me to be a giant bitch and bowl over everyone? Thats just not who I am, I am not going to change for a guy who doesnt even want a relationship with me. And then, the independance thing, that really irked me, he obviously doesnt know jack shit about it. And his ex, he took care of everything for her since age 16, so she obviously wasnt independant! He states the fact that I live next door to my parents as evidence of his opinion. But he doesnt know the whole story. I have been on my own since 18, put myself through college, and happen to be living on my parents property as a way of saving $ to pay down my college debt so I can do the things I really want-like buy a house. Plus my parents wanted to move next door, so I could help with the house they are building and watch over things while they are gone. Plus, he doesnt even begin to know this, my mom has cancer so I want to be close to her.

But fucking Sean, he doesnt ask or even care to know, he just passes judgement on me based off what other people tell him or whatever. Stop trying to judge me if you arent even trying to have a relationship with me who gives a fuck!?! Then he says we are soo different, we could never be a couple because I havent been through the same fucked up shit he has. Well, I dont have to have had the exact same experiences as him to have sympathy and to understand how that has affected him! So hes making me feel like a big pile of crap becauses he saying Im not good enough...at least thats what I feel like...I need to give him a piece of my freakin mind!!!!